the closest to heaven I will ever be (at least while I am alive)

I love Beersheba Springs Tennessee. I know big surprise. It is my favorite place on the earth. When I am there things work. Dreaming the impossible is really just dreaming the what can happen. Nothing is too big to do. You can change the world. When we are at Beersheba we are living in an ideal world. It is a place filled with laughter and peace, where we are connected to nature and one another in a way I can't always find in the real world. We clap for one another at the talent show, and we sing without fear of others hearing us. People support my crazy ideas and do what ever they can to assist me. There are two story people quotes that I like to describe Beersheba, but there are countless others

If there is any secret to this life I live, this is it: the sound of what cannot be seen sings within everything that can. & there is nothing more to it than that.

I promise you not a moment will be lost as long as I have heart & voice to speak & we will walk again together with a thousand others & a thousand more & on & on until there is no one among us who does not know the truth: there is no future without love.

There is no future without love, but there are moments that make loving the world easier.

Love,

the girl who is still being created 

See Me

Last night was an event on campus called box city. It was yet another reminder that I close my eyes from the world to often. I don't see the people around me. I don't. I should but I don't. This is what what ran thru my mind this morning:
How can I walk past you everyday and not see you? Who are you? Why do I not recognize our similarities? Because as much as I want to say I acknowledge everyone's suffering, I don't. And even if I do see it, I don't do enough.
Let me see beauty in all the people I see face. Let me see their suffering and lend a comforting hand. Oh, I don't know if I have the strength to open my eyes. I don't want to become disillusioned from this beautiful world but I don't want to turn a blind eye on it either. I will open my eyes, don't let them stay closed. No don't let them stay closed.

lost and found

Yesterday, Mom and I worked on cleaning my room (yes, it did take both of us, and yes, you should be shocked) and we found one of my old stuffed animals. This ragged little cat has a belly that has been clutched so much it is a completely different texture than the rest of her fur. She has been well loved. She protected me from monsters and comforted me when I cried. We played together. Every child needs a toy like that. She gave me ComFURt. hahah. But more seriously I can't imagine not having her, my baby doll, or my real animals.  I googled organizations that give animals to children how don't have any and there are tons out there, including ones that take pre-loved toys.
ComFURt
Held close
Cuddle
Cry
You have been there
I have been there
I might be old
But you still give me comfort
I will carry you with me don't worry